Zhurkin:
Let me try to remember this. You know, I am talking about my emotions. You know, it was—my
first emotion was a great surprise, I would say, because I thought that it
is, well, so anachronistic, you know, that the President describing the
Soviet Union in such terms, that I believed before that that both our
nations already left this stage of our relations long behind us. Because in
19—in late forties, in early fifties, ah, both sides hurled, so to say, not
very pleasant words in direction of each other, and I should say that our
side was also not very much lagging behind the Americans, at that time. But,
I'm sure, about our side, that, ah, ah, people long already
understood that it was a great anachronism, you know, to deal with America
in sim-simplistic terms, you know. And then suddenly, this, this ah, uhr,
this simplistic approach suddenly emerged, and the first feeling was,
even, not of fear, not of concern, not of worries, but just of surprise and
ah, but then, little by little, other feelings of concern ah, added to it.
Though on the one hand, on the one hand, we have accustomed, in a sense, to
live in a state of comparative security. It was not so before the beginning
of 1970s, but after, after we understood that there is a capability of both
sides to destroy each other, that there is a comparative balance of nuclear
forces, then with all these worries about possibility of accidental war,
nuclear winter, and certainly with all this inner feeling that really, the
war will bring the end of humanity. On the other side, on the more, so
to say, everyday level, some feeling of security developed, that ah, in a
sense, at least for some time, that there is a security. And ah, and when
these actions on the side of Reagan administration started—early actions and
pronouncements, with increase of defense expenditures, I personally looked
at it through the, I would say sense of humor, because the, you know, the
regent, still balance exists, and it is so thick that it is impossible
for any side to overthrow it. And by the way, the results of this Reagan
buildup, which, of which we are very critical that they spend $2 trillion
for this military buildup; it did not bring the United
States anything. America, America did not reach, achieve superiority in any
other field, any other field. Not, first of all, because the Soviet Union
counter-balanced it, but possibly, if our country would not do anything,
possibly they would not achieve something, because really, the, the balance,
as I said, it is so, so thick. But little by little, certainly, the concern,
the concern, concern developed, because on the one, on the one hand, we feel
of needing more security, on the other hand, all of us understand that
it is rather precarious feeling, because accidental, as it were, as, as a
development of some sudden crisis, something may happen. So let us, if
to talk about purely emotions, not rational analysis of this, I would
describe my emotions like this.